Hi again and again!!!
Actually, I have a lot of things to say. All my feelings and emotions. But I don't know if it is polite cause I don't want to hurt my friends feelings... Not that I hurt them, but they hurt me... Fortunately, I have only one friend that would be always by my side and I mean only one. You should know who you are. But right now, I know that my friends didn't mean to do so but it really hurts me just to think about it. I really don't know who to share with. I don't have the guts to look for my parents, teachers or relatives. I don't want to burden my most trusted friend whom I mentioned above...
Sometimes, I really don't understand why they would do such a thing to me. Is it that they want to lose me, this friend, or what??? Lots of things happen in school. My friends who keep tickling me which really makes me upset, angry, disappointed that those are my friends. Next, they don't even bother about me. Just like ignoring me as if I am an invisible person to just them... I just realise it today.
Today, after school, I dropped my things and I went back to pick it up. I expected to see the friendly faces of my friends greeting me and waiting for me at the school gate. But then, I was way too disappointed. They were not there at all. It was just all the pupils bustling out of the school gate. How could this be??? I saw my three friends in front walking and chatting together. They didn't seem to realise my absence. I decided to wait to see their reaction but to no avail, they didn't even notice me as they were too engross in their conversation. Then, I continued walking. I saw one of my friend in front. She walk towards me and ask me "What are you doing?" I was so shocked!!! I couldn't believe that. Then she say, "Go back home lah..." I was so disappointed by the second response that I quickly turned back and rushed back home. I met my most trusted friend but I quickly put on a fake smile. I don't want anybody to know what I am going through. Until now... I couldn't hold on any longer. I decided to leak it out. I am holding back my tears right now.
Why oh why??? Is this what friends are for??? I know it seem
unbelievable but did you know that this friends, one from primary 1, one from primary 5, one from last year japan homestay??? They are so close to me that I thought them as my sisters. But they really let me down this time. I don't know what to do now... Forget it. I can't type any further... Just that I couldn't do it... Sorry friends.
What are frenz for???
Bb, hope that you can stop this...
++shared memories++ 8/21/2008 07:27:00 pm
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